chapter 3 : heaven sent them
gabriel and natasha went back to gabriel's place. nathanael was still sitting down and reading his book. natasha was still crying, she has lost someone who loved her with all his heart and left by someone who gave her happiness which easily fades away. while gabriel stunned, his bestfriend just killed people, and how was he gonna tell nathan...?how would nathan react...?three of them have been together since samuel came to orphanage..still, he must tell nathanael...this nonsense had gone far enough...
"whats with the faces...?"nathanael asked."why are yo crying, sha...?and wheres sammy...?
"nath, when i tell you this..try to control yourself..."gabriel prepared to tell nathanael..
after a few minutes of explanation, gabriel expected nathanael to shout or scream, but instead, he just sat and continued reading.
"nath, what are you doing...?our friend has just been a mad man and a living dead, and if what that freaky old man said is true, samuel is going to lead an army of living deads too...and you are just sitting there and reading your useless book."gabriel was completely filled with anger and emotion.
"shht..."was just nathanael's reply. he turned the pages on the book few times, looked like he was finding something.
"see this book...?its called the death's. i bought it few days back in the night market at the center of the city...this book is about a myth that tells death's will of conquering the world. it tells exactly the same as you just told me..death cant lead his army to this world by himself, he needs someone from this world to connect them. and according to this book too, that someone must be really betrayed and hates this world so bad...and if we look at samuel's life..that would be perfect for death, and death must have followed samuel his whole life..."explained nathanael.
gabriel and natasha fell in silence. if the book was true, then what could they do...?
"you remember who sold the book to you, nath...?"asked gabriel.
"of course.."answered nathanael."so..are we goin to meet the man who sold me this book...?"
"yeap...tomorrow we are goin to city center, and find him...we will do something about this...and find a way to bring samuel back..."said gabriel.
"tomorrow...?why not now...?"natasha said, still in tears.
"because, our dear natasha. we need to rest and think of what has happened...what we have done to our loved one..."
and so, they spent the night resting and thinking of what happened. natasha stayed over their house. both her and gabriel thought how could they betray someone who loves them so much and found that actually, deep inside their hearts, they loved samuel too. while those two falling asleep, nathanael kept thinking and regretting. regretting for not doing something to his bestfriends, regretting for staying put, regretting for being so ignorant to people he loved, people who were left only for him, people who were his family. that night, he cried in his room,and that night, he promised to himself not to lose his loved ones. he thought, whatever will happen, he will bring samuel back and four of them will live a better future...hopefully...
night market was as busy as it has been. natasha, gabriel and nathanael were searching for the man who sold the death's to nathanael."there he is.."nathanael pointed at some old man, looked very wise and full of misery of life.
"evening, sir.."greeted nathanael.
"ahh...young man, how did you find the book...?interesting enough...?"the old man said with a warm smile.
"yes sir, but something strange has happened and i think it has to do with the book."said nathanael.
"is that so...?tell you something, i sensed that something is up. our beautiful garden got a hole now. and yes, i think it has something to do with the death's. and tell you one secret. i think the death himself had come and found his second man in command..."told the old man. the way he spoke was very calming. you would think that he was giving craps.
"its true, the man is our friend and her fiance."said gabriel.
the old man smiled.
"hmm..meet me at the entrance few more minutes, aite...i'll tell you everything.."said the old man.
few minutes later, the old man came to see them at the entrance of the night market.
"lets go to my place, shall we...im going to introduce you to few of my colleagues..."he smiled...
they followed the old man to his place, but it was nowhere...
"where are we, sir...?"asked nathanael.
"call me jacques..and here is nowhere on earth..."jacques said..
"the where are we...?"asked natasha...
"just say we are on heaven's gate..."jacques smiled again and place where they stood shone..it was the brightest and most beautiful light...some said it was the light of heaven.
"welcome, to my place..hehehe..."
they arrived in a room, and the atmosphere was so warm and calming...
"where is this, jacques...?"asked gabriel."and what is goin on...?please explain, we have been through some trouble.."
"relax, gabriel. your name is arcangel's name..the left hand of God, calm down...this is heaven's door on earth."said jaqcues."now, lets sit down and talk about samuel."
three of them were confused, where were they...?who is this jacques...?and how he knew about them...?
they started to ask jacques about everything.
"death has its own army in the underworld, but he cant lead them to earth. so he needs someone from earth to lead them..."sadi jacques.
"we know that...but why sammy...?"asked natasha.
"samuel, as you all know, has lived a tough life. his parents did not want him, mobs were using him, and when he thought he found his family, two of you betrayed him."jacques said."but, we are not blaming you, are we not..."
"i blame myself...gabriel didnt betray him like i did..."natasha said and started to cry again.
"be strong, natasha. women have to be strong. they may show their tears, but have to be strong when their loved ones are having trouble, so they can calm the men when men cant control themselves."advised jacques.
"jacques, one question..how are we goin to stop them...?"asked nathanael.
"well, we have to defeat samuel. that, i found a little bit challenging as he possesses the power of death himself now..not all, but strong enough...and we defeat him, heaven will know death's plan and will take action on it."
"good, so what is our plan to defeat samuel and bring him back...?"asked gabriel.
"i think you got me wrong, young man. when we defeat him, samuel will die."
three of them were stunned...were they going to lose samuel forever...?
"what do you mean by that...?there must be a way to save samuel...!!"demanded gabriel.
"gabriel..you saw he stabbed his heart, didnt you...?"asked jacques.
gabriel nodded..he started to fill with anger.
"and i believe you did, too, natasha...?"
she nodded, too.
"well, he who stabbed his heart with death's power when his heart already stopped is no longer belonged to this world. he is literally dead now..."jacques explained.
silence was among them for few minutes. and nathanael spoke.
"so, lets say we are going to defeat him...how are we going to do that...?"
"we have to make him feel love again, when he does, his heart will revive and beats again..."said jacques.
"his heart beats again...?then whats the reason he will die...?"asked natasha.
"when his heart beats again, he will turn to ashes. i told you that he is no longer belonged to this world. i am sorry to tell you, but theres no way to bring him back."
the room fell in silence again. but natasha cried again, she couldnt stand to listen to what jacques has said, that she was going to lose samuel forever. then, she made up her mind, if she was going to lose him forever, she must let him go in his human and happy form.
"guys, if we are going to lose him forever, he must get his humanity back. it was our fault he became like this, he didnt deserve that, so we must take this consequence. i said this as a woman who loves him and wants him to be happy when he leaves this world."said natasha.
"yeap. its our fault. we have to accept this."said nathanael.
"your fault, nath..?its more like my fault, i could stop this from happening..."gabriel said in sadness..even he started to cry.
"it is too my fault, gab. i was being ignorant of you guys. way too ignorant.this is the least i can say. i am going to lose my brother, and i'll lose him with him being happy, not regretting having friends like us. so, my brother, are you with me...?"said nathanael in full bravery and way that a man reacts.
"forever, brother. this is our fault that our brother is like this, and we are going to save him from this misery."said gabriel. and the bonds of friendship, brothers and woman who loves her man have brought three of them together to a mission of saving their loved one..
"good, thats what i want to see from all of you.."said jacques.
"so, jacques. whats our plan...?"asked nathanael.
"ohohoho...before that..let me introduce you to some people who you can trust and believe in completing the plan...come here, guys..."called jacques..
the door opened, three men came in. one with a lot of swords, the other was full of explosive and guns, the last one was just a kid.
"meet my colleagues, my team, and my friends."said jacques.
"matthew.."jacques pointed at the swordman. mathew nodded.
"danial.."the gun man. danial was smoking a ciggars..
"and this smart little kid, abraham..."
"HI..!!"greeted abraham.
jacques stood up...
"we too have followed death and his plan on samuel, by heaven's order of course.three of you can say that heaven sent us to do its dirty jobs..."
next up, chapter 4 : down in the underworld
Monday, November 23, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
heartless grimreaper
chapter 2 : how heartless are you ?
samuel shook death's hand. the moment he did that, dark cloud appeared in the sky and a big pressure force gabriel and the other on to the ground...place where samuel and death made their deal was brought few meters down the earth...wind blew hard around the garden...samuel's face showed no expression...though where him and the death stood were brought down..both of them were flying...as their hand were kept together, samuel's hand started to be covered by dark shadow and soon covered his entire body...
"what is going on...?!!" johanness asked...
"how the hell am i supposed to know..!!this doesnt make any sense..at all..!!"shouted gabriel..
then it all suddenly stopped by a light, the brightest one, from where samuel and death made their deal. the place was full of smoke. three of them got up...there was one big hole from where samuel and death stood...
"what has happened here...?"gabriel walked towards the hole...
"gab..wheres sammy...?wheres the strange man...?where are they...?"asked natasha...
"sha, are you ok...?that was crazy..."johanness said in fear of what just happened..."your ex wont do anything stupid rite...?"
"he is not her ex...i think i prefer to say that he is her fiance now..."said gabriel.
natasha cried again...and then she shouted,"samuel..!!where on earth are you..?"
"i am here.." there was a voice from the hole...it was samuel...
samuel walked up from the hole, he appeared from the smoke...he looked full of hatred...
"oi, old man...where are you..?"samuel shouted..his voice was so heavy...
"here, my grimreaper..."death flew up from the hole as well."i have fulfilled my promise..now your heart is no longer beating for you.."
true..samuel's heart had stopped beating but yet he was still breathing and alive...
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA......."samuel laughed...it was the worst laughter in the world...
there were people coming towards them...they were johanness's friends...
"oh..lets see...an asshole had called his friends.."said samuel...
"you shut up...i dunno who you really are..but we are gonna show you our mercilessness to you for ruining my night with her..."said johanness."guys take him down..!!"
"hahahahaha....arent you all just gentlemen...?" with one move of his hand, all of johanness's friend were down..
"now, samuel...show me how heartless you are..."said the death.
"yes, my lord.."
within the next few minutes, all of them have experienced hell...
"samuel..stop this..."natasha said with her tears...
samuel looked at her...he stopped his moves...
"whats wrong, son..?arent you heartless...?"death reminded samuel...
with his eyes were still at natasha, he finished off all johanness's friends...they were beheaded...
"NO...!!!gabriel shouted as he was seeing his bestfriend killing...
johanness couldnt speak, natasha was shocked, gabriel punched the ground...
three of them just saw a terrible and horrifying scene...johanness tried to run and hit natasha...
"where are you going..?"gabriel asked him..
"running away of course..you think i wanna die for something stupid..?" said johanness..he was extremely frightened...
"stupid...?what is stupid..?"natasha asked..
"two of you of course...i am not goin to die for you..."johanness said and he ran...
gabriel and natasha were left by johanness...
"hahahahahahaha....what a coward...but thats not important, is it now samuel..?"said the death."now, our last step for you to become real heartless...i want you to stab you dead heart by this sword and take it out of your body..."
death gave samuel a sword. the sword was black in color..it was covered by blood and you can smell blood from it...samuel took the sword and pointed it at his chest..
"sam...dont do that...you dont want to die.."gabriel said...
"sammy...what are you doing...?dont kill yourself...please come back to me..i am sorry...please..."natasha tried to convince samuel..
"hahahahahhaa...dont two of you get it...?i am already dead...my heart doesnt beat anymore...and i no longer need that..."
and he stabbed his dead heart...samuel shone, but it was not a bright light...it was an obscure one...
samuel reappeared before them, with death behind him...his eyes were completely black...there were no longer whites in his eyes...
"good...now, my samuel...kill them for me.."death said and pointed at natasha and gabriel."kill the peolple who hurt you..."
"no, master.."
"why...?are you still in doubt...?do you still love them..?killing those cowards doesnt mean you are really heartless, it only shows that you are merciless.."death questioned his grimreaper...
samuel smile sinisterly."master, i am heartless...but i still know what passion is...and killing them will give me the best passion ever...but i'll save it for the last.."
"but to show you that i am heartless.."samuel closed his eyes and shouted...the moment he shouted, building next to the garden was destroyed...killing people around it..
"i have destroyed it...shall i destroy another building, sir...?"samuel asked..
"that will be unnecessary...i think its enough for now...lets go to the underworld and meet my army..."said the death...
natasha and gabriel were stunned in disbelief and fear...not to mention guilty and sadness...
"yes, master..."samuel looked at them for the last time in that night.."we'll meet again, and when we do...i wont give you any chance to survive.."
then two of them disappeared, leaving those two...
natasha cried and shouted,"SAMUEL...!!"
she has made the man who truly loved him heartless...and gabriel just kept quite...
next up, chapter 3 : heaven sent them
samuel shook death's hand. the moment he did that, dark cloud appeared in the sky and a big pressure force gabriel and the other on to the ground...place where samuel and death made their deal was brought few meters down the earth...wind blew hard around the garden...samuel's face showed no expression...though where him and the death stood were brought down..both of them were flying...as their hand were kept together, samuel's hand started to be covered by dark shadow and soon covered his entire body...
"what is going on...?!!" johanness asked...
"how the hell am i supposed to know..!!this doesnt make any sense..at all..!!"shouted gabriel..
then it all suddenly stopped by a light, the brightest one, from where samuel and death made their deal. the place was full of smoke. three of them got up...there was one big hole from where samuel and death stood...
"what has happened here...?"gabriel walked towards the hole...
"gab..wheres sammy...?wheres the strange man...?where are they...?"asked natasha...
"sha, are you ok...?that was crazy..."johanness said in fear of what just happened..."your ex wont do anything stupid rite...?"
"he is not her ex...i think i prefer to say that he is her fiance now..."said gabriel.
natasha cried again...and then she shouted,"samuel..!!where on earth are you..?"
"i am here.." there was a voice from the hole...it was samuel...
samuel walked up from the hole, he appeared from the smoke...he looked full of hatred...
"oi, old man...where are you..?"samuel shouted..his voice was so heavy...
"here, my grimreaper..."death flew up from the hole as well."i have fulfilled my promise..now your heart is no longer beating for you.."
true..samuel's heart had stopped beating but yet he was still breathing and alive...
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA......."samuel laughed...it was the worst laughter in the world...
there were people coming towards them...they were johanness's friends...
"oh..lets see...an asshole had called his friends.."said samuel...
"you shut up...i dunno who you really are..but we are gonna show you our mercilessness to you for ruining my night with her..."said johanness."guys take him down..!!"
"hahahahaha....arent you all just gentlemen...?" with one move of his hand, all of johanness's friend were down..
"now, samuel...show me how heartless you are..."said the death.
"yes, my lord.."
within the next few minutes, all of them have experienced hell...
"samuel..stop this..."natasha said with her tears...
samuel looked at her...he stopped his moves...
"whats wrong, son..?arent you heartless...?"death reminded samuel...
with his eyes were still at natasha, he finished off all johanness's friends...they were beheaded...
"NO...!!!gabriel shouted as he was seeing his bestfriend killing...
johanness couldnt speak, natasha was shocked, gabriel punched the ground...
three of them just saw a terrible and horrifying scene...johanness tried to run and hit natasha...
"where are you going..?"gabriel asked him..
"running away of course..you think i wanna die for something stupid..?" said johanness..he was extremely frightened...
"stupid...?what is stupid..?"natasha asked..
"two of you of course...i am not goin to die for you..."johanness said and he ran...
gabriel and natasha were left by johanness...
"hahahahahahaha....what a coward...but thats not important, is it now samuel..?"said the death."now, our last step for you to become real heartless...i want you to stab you dead heart by this sword and take it out of your body..."
death gave samuel a sword. the sword was black in color..it was covered by blood and you can smell blood from it...samuel took the sword and pointed it at his chest..
"sam...dont do that...you dont want to die.."gabriel said...
"sammy...what are you doing...?dont kill yourself...please come back to me..i am sorry...please..."natasha tried to convince samuel..
"hahahahahhaa...dont two of you get it...?i am already dead...my heart doesnt beat anymore...and i no longer need that..."
and he stabbed his dead heart...samuel shone, but it was not a bright light...it was an obscure one...
samuel reappeared before them, with death behind him...his eyes were completely black...there were no longer whites in his eyes...
"good...now, my samuel...kill them for me.."death said and pointed at natasha and gabriel."kill the peolple who hurt you..."
"no, master.."
"why...?are you still in doubt...?do you still love them..?killing those cowards doesnt mean you are really heartless, it only shows that you are merciless.."death questioned his grimreaper...
samuel smile sinisterly."master, i am heartless...but i still know what passion is...and killing them will give me the best passion ever...but i'll save it for the last.."
"but to show you that i am heartless.."samuel closed his eyes and shouted...the moment he shouted, building next to the garden was destroyed...killing people around it..
"i have destroyed it...shall i destroy another building, sir...?"samuel asked..
"that will be unnecessary...i think its enough for now...lets go to the underworld and meet my army..."said the death...
natasha and gabriel were stunned in disbelief and fear...not to mention guilty and sadness...
"yes, master..."samuel looked at them for the last time in that night.."we'll meet again, and when we do...i wont give you any chance to survive.."
then two of them disappeared, leaving those two...
natasha cried and shouted,"SAMUEL...!!"
she has made the man who truly loved him heartless...and gabriel just kept quite...
next up, chapter 3 : heaven sent them
Thursday, November 19, 2009
first time i saw her.i said 'wow...who is she...?' to myself
i couldnt get to know her though, my hands were locked..
few months later, my hands were released...
at the same time, we met for the first time...
but we didnt talk, at all...
i talked to her, first time in my life. or rather i would say i laughed at her...
i saw her laughed, but said to me,"karel, dont be so bad.."
she said my name, she laughed and smiled. and i said to myself 'wow...thank you God for making me be able to enjoy such a joy'
months passed...problems come and go away in her life...and so do they come and go in mine...
we talked to each other...laughed at each other...mocked each other...there was it, problems are temporarily gone...
every time i know she is sad..i asked God,"God, can i do something for her..?"
God didnt say anything, He wants me to find out myself...and so i did...
i can..i am able...
once she asked me to go away and move on...i said to her ,"let me enjoy these moments.."
i wish these moments would last long, till eternity if possible...
the next time, few months after she asked me to go, i said,"would it make you feel better if i go away. if yes, then i'll go..."
but she asked me to stay this time. and i said,"i wont leave you."
and now, she decided to face it all by herself...she doesnt want me to get involved...i told her how could i do that...but yet, she made her mind...
and so, i am leaving...
i think, have i been there...?i might have reached her heart, but i couldnt go in, i coudnt enter...she never let me...
if next time she is ready to open her heart...if i am still here...if theres still a possibility...and its only if...i hope that when she does, it will be for me...but its all only if...
she asked me what is love...i said love is not something you can buy...its something you feel...and you fight for it...
i am sorry if i cant be the usual me..who always makes you laugh...and be there for you...you let me go, and i cant hold you...you made your mind...no matter how hard i fight for you, its already decided...
i dont blame goodbye...nor i blame our meeting...nor fate...nor God...nor us...its just i am stupid to think that these moments of ours will end happily...i am sorry...for everything...for loving you this much...
i dont want to give hopes to myself anymore, if it turns out just false ones for me...the hopes that come from me..not from other people...
you are a girl that worth fighting for...dont ever underestimate yourself...and dont be sorry for this...you are worth fighting for...but i am not worth enough to fight for you...
i am sorry...
i quote these lines from songs, and i give them to you...
'dont cry, you have my heart..at least for the most part' from a little piece of heaven by avenged sevenfold
'so lie to me and tell me that its gonna be alright, i dont mind if you wait before you tear me apart' from lie by david cook
'its all began from a simple crush' from insomnia by craig david
there are few more...but i dont think i could reach that level for now..
'i've put my faith in you' from i've put my faith in you by withoutch, my band
'maybe its true, that i cant live without you, maybe two is better than one' from two is better than one by boys like girls feat taylor swift...
and this one, i really wish i could do as it was written in the song...i wish that if i do it...it'll be for you and you would look back at me one more time...
'i can wait forever' from i can wait forever by simple plan....
again i am sorry...
sorry, sorry and sorry....
and thank you...
grazie, spiacente...i dont want to say this, but something is forcing me to...arrivederci...
io ti amo...ti voglio bene...con speranza per sempre...
last thing to say...i hope this wont fade away just like that...
i couldnt get to know her though, my hands were locked..
few months later, my hands were released...
at the same time, we met for the first time...
but we didnt talk, at all...
i talked to her, first time in my life. or rather i would say i laughed at her...
i saw her laughed, but said to me,"karel, dont be so bad.."
she said my name, she laughed and smiled. and i said to myself 'wow...thank you God for making me be able to enjoy such a joy'
months passed...problems come and go away in her life...and so do they come and go in mine...
we talked to each other...laughed at each other...mocked each other...there was it, problems are temporarily gone...
every time i know she is sad..i asked God,"God, can i do something for her..?"
God didnt say anything, He wants me to find out myself...and so i did...
i can..i am able...
once she asked me to go away and move on...i said to her ,"let me enjoy these moments.."
i wish these moments would last long, till eternity if possible...
the next time, few months after she asked me to go, i said,"would it make you feel better if i go away. if yes, then i'll go..."
but she asked me to stay this time. and i said,"i wont leave you."
and now, she decided to face it all by herself...she doesnt want me to get involved...i told her how could i do that...but yet, she made her mind...
and so, i am leaving...
i think, have i been there...?i might have reached her heart, but i couldnt go in, i coudnt enter...she never let me...
if next time she is ready to open her heart...if i am still here...if theres still a possibility...and its only if...i hope that when she does, it will be for me...but its all only if...
she asked me what is love...i said love is not something you can buy...its something you feel...and you fight for it...
i am sorry if i cant be the usual me..who always makes you laugh...and be there for you...you let me go, and i cant hold you...you made your mind...no matter how hard i fight for you, its already decided...
i dont blame goodbye...nor i blame our meeting...nor fate...nor God...nor us...its just i am stupid to think that these moments of ours will end happily...i am sorry...for everything...for loving you this much...
i dont want to give hopes to myself anymore, if it turns out just false ones for me...the hopes that come from me..not from other people...
you are a girl that worth fighting for...dont ever underestimate yourself...and dont be sorry for this...you are worth fighting for...but i am not worth enough to fight for you...
i am sorry...
i quote these lines from songs, and i give them to you...
'dont cry, you have my heart..at least for the most part' from a little piece of heaven by avenged sevenfold
'so lie to me and tell me that its gonna be alright, i dont mind if you wait before you tear me apart' from lie by david cook
'its all began from a simple crush' from insomnia by craig david
there are few more...but i dont think i could reach that level for now..
'i've put my faith in you' from i've put my faith in you by withoutch, my band
'maybe its true, that i cant live without you, maybe two is better than one' from two is better than one by boys like girls feat taylor swift...
and this one, i really wish i could do as it was written in the song...i wish that if i do it...it'll be for you and you would look back at me one more time...
'i can wait forever' from i can wait forever by simple plan....
again i am sorry...
sorry, sorry and sorry....
and thank you...
grazie, spiacente...i dont want to say this, but something is forcing me to...arrivederci...
io ti amo...ti voglio bene...con speranza per sempre...
last thing to say...i hope this wont fade away just like that...
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
heartless grimreaper
chapter 1 : betrayal
it was said that death had his own army, an army that was prepared by himself to conquer earth, secretly and unknown from heaven community. but death himself couldnt lead the army. because he made a deal with heaven not to come to earth for any other business than taking someone's life. yet, the death still managed to find someone from earth to lead his army. how did death's effort affect a man named samuel...?we are about to find out...
samuel was 23 years old. he was an orphan, but not a common one. he was sold by his parents to the mobs when he was 13...an age where a boy faces unstable condition due to puberty...then at age 15, he managed to escape from the mobs..came to the orphanage which he had been spending his life...since he came to that orphanage, his life became better...he had 2 best friends, nathanael and gabriel...he had a girlfriend, natasha, who he loved so much, and so did her...at 23 years old, he got his job... a fine one and gud enough for him to start a family...
"guys, im going to propose her..."samuel said to his friends..
"hmm...thats gud."said nathanael...
"show some happy reaction, please..."samuel said with a bitterness in his voice, but still smiling...
"are you sure, sam...?you are sure about her...?"asked gabriel."is she the girl you really look for...?"
"why is she not..?i have been knowing her for 5 years, almost like i know you guys...except of course you two i know longer...but, yeap...i know its gonna be her...hehehe.."samuel said."why is that, dude..?"
"nothing..i just want you to think carefully and if you think shes the 1 then we'll support you, right, nath...?" gabriel said to nathanael who was enjoying his book..
"hmm..yeap.."he said."and gab...your friend called..whats his name..?erm..johann...?"
"oo...johanness...right..im gonna call him back...so sam...tell us when is the dinner after you propose her...we need free dinner..." gabriel said...
"hahaha...alrite then...im gonna do that tomorrow or 2 days later...hehehhe...im gonna get married guys...!!"samuel said while jumping around...
"yeap...and not only we will have free dinners, we also will have bachelor party..."said nathanael still enjoying his book...
the next day...
samuel was getting ready...he was going to meet natasha without her knowing...
"nath..im goin, ok...wish me luck..."he said as he was leaving...
"alrite, gud luck and buy me some snacks when you are back..."
"ok, BTW, wheres gabriel...?"
"hes out..i dunno where.."nathanael said...still enjoying his book...
"alrite then, bye..."
samuel was out. he took his phone and called natasha...
"yes, sammy..."natasha answered..
"sha, where are you...?"he asked...
"i am outside with my friends...we are at the garden..why..?"
"nothing, i am just asking. are you going home anytime soon...?"samuel asked...
"nope, i suppose...why...?is there something you wanna talk about...?"asked natasha, there was a lil bit of nervousness in her voice...but he didnt notice it as he was too excited to meet her and propose her...
"nothing, i am just outside too buying food for nathan, thought you could accompany me.."he lied..
"oo..sorry honey...my friends asked me first...how about tomorrow..?we havent gone out together for a while now..."she said...
"hmm..that sounds good..alrite then, see yoou tomorrow babe...i'll send you a message later...bye..love you"
"bye..love you, too..."
she is at the garden, he thought...then samuel made his way to the garden...prepared to propose his love one...a few minutes later, he reached the garden...he looked around the garden for natasha...and he found her..not alone, true...but not with her friends...she was with 2 guys....and samuel recognized them...they were gabriel and johanness...and natasha was kissing with johanness...it cant be,samuel thought...and what gabriel was doing..?seeing his bestfriend's girlfriend was kissing with other guy...was that why gabriel asked samuel whether he was sure to propose natasha or not...?
samuel stunned and he shouted,"OI..!!"
three of them were shocked and looked at him...
"sammy..."natasha said...
"sam.."said gabriel."what are you doing here...?"
"sammy..."natasha came closer to samuel..started to cry...johanness just stood and watched the scene...
in disbelief, samuel kept quite...his heart was broken...
"dont come near me..."samuel whispered to natasha...
"sammy, listen..."but samuel shouted...
"stay away from me..!!"
"whats the meaning of this...?i came here to propose you...to tell you that i love you and want you in my life forever.."samuel said and natasha fell in tears as she was hearing this."i wanted it to be a surprise, but, seems like im the one who got a surprise..."
"and you.."he said to gabriel."did you know about all of this...?"
"yes, sam..."
"since when...?"
"6 months a go...she started cheated on you 6 months a go..."gabriel said, he felt guilty for not telling his bset friend about this...
"6 months ,sha.."he said."what did i do wrong till you betrayed me...?"
"nothing, sammy...i love you...but.."samuel cut her sentence and shook his head..
"you dont love me, you loved me...but you dont...hahahahahaha...!!"samuel started to laugh...
"when i was 15, i was abandoned, my parents didnt want me...i found you guys, nath and you, gab...and now i thought i found a girl who really loves me..."he said..
"i do sammy.."cried natasha..
"but now...i am being abandoned again...left and betrayed..."he was laughing and at the same time samuel's tears began to fall...
"i have given my heart to you, natasha...and to you,too gab..i would die for three of you...for natasha, gabriel and nathanael...but yet, 2 of you betrayed me...i dont know about nath...but it seems like i am heartless now...HAHAHAHA...!!!"he turned around and started to walk and shout and laugh like mad person...
"sam..wait.."said gabriel."we can explain this..."
"i dont need you to explain..i only need reason why i deserved this..."samuel said, he kept walking further from them...as they were trying to catch him...
"i am sorry, sammy..you dont deserve this...i am sorry..."natasha said...
"too late...i already got what i dont deserve...and if i really could, i would take out my heart out, literally..."he said...
"are you sure...?"someone in black cloth has come to samuel all in sudden and asked him."are you really sure that you want to take your heart out...?
samuel looked at the stranger."yes, i am sure..."
all of them stayed put...looked very confused...who is this man...?they asked...
then the stranger said,"i can do it for you...but i am telling you...if you take out your heart, you'll be dead...you want that...?"
"nope...i want to live without my heart..."samuel said...
"whats your name son...?"the man in black cloth asked..
"samuel.."
"well samuel...how if i say, you sell your heart to me, you get your life without your heart...but not only you live without a heart...but you will get the power to spread misery and lead my army to conquer this world..lead my army and be as who you want to be."he offered samuel a nonsense deal."you will live as my general and grimreaper...and you can do whatever you want with people in this earth and those who have hurt you...will you do that...?
samuel, he was confused, sad, hurt, angry, and felt betrayed said,"my parents didnt want me, people who i thought loved me betrayed me...all i do is for them...in this body, with this heart...and now i think...why do i need this heart for...?i dont need it anymore..."
"so..its a deal...?"the death smiled evilly and ready to shake samuel's hand...
"sammy...what are you doing...?get away from him.."said natasha...gabriel and johanness just stood in confuse...
samuel didnt listen to her...and then he said,"deal.."
END...
next up, chapter 2 : how heartless are you?
it was said that death had his own army, an army that was prepared by himself to conquer earth, secretly and unknown from heaven community. but death himself couldnt lead the army. because he made a deal with heaven not to come to earth for any other business than taking someone's life. yet, the death still managed to find someone from earth to lead his army. how did death's effort affect a man named samuel...?we are about to find out...
samuel was 23 years old. he was an orphan, but not a common one. he was sold by his parents to the mobs when he was 13...an age where a boy faces unstable condition due to puberty...then at age 15, he managed to escape from the mobs..came to the orphanage which he had been spending his life...since he came to that orphanage, his life became better...he had 2 best friends, nathanael and gabriel...he had a girlfriend, natasha, who he loved so much, and so did her...at 23 years old, he got his job... a fine one and gud enough for him to start a family...
"guys, im going to propose her..."samuel said to his friends..
"hmm...thats gud."said nathanael...
"show some happy reaction, please..."samuel said with a bitterness in his voice, but still smiling...
"are you sure, sam...?you are sure about her...?"asked gabriel."is she the girl you really look for...?"
"why is she not..?i have been knowing her for 5 years, almost like i know you guys...except of course you two i know longer...but, yeap...i know its gonna be her...hehehe.."samuel said."why is that, dude..?"
"nothing..i just want you to think carefully and if you think shes the 1 then we'll support you, right, nath...?" gabriel said to nathanael who was enjoying his book..
"hmm..yeap.."he said."and gab...your friend called..whats his name..?erm..johann...?"
"oo...johanness...right..im gonna call him back...so sam...tell us when is the dinner after you propose her...we need free dinner..." gabriel said...
"hahaha...alrite then...im gonna do that tomorrow or 2 days later...hehehhe...im gonna get married guys...!!"samuel said while jumping around...
"yeap...and not only we will have free dinners, we also will have bachelor party..."said nathanael still enjoying his book...
the next day...
samuel was getting ready...he was going to meet natasha without her knowing...
"nath..im goin, ok...wish me luck..."he said as he was leaving...
"alrite, gud luck and buy me some snacks when you are back..."
"ok, BTW, wheres gabriel...?"
"hes out..i dunno where.."nathanael said...still enjoying his book...
"alrite then, bye..."
samuel was out. he took his phone and called natasha...
"yes, sammy..."natasha answered..
"sha, where are you...?"he asked...
"i am outside with my friends...we are at the garden..why..?"
"nothing, i am just asking. are you going home anytime soon...?"samuel asked...
"nope, i suppose...why...?is there something you wanna talk about...?"asked natasha, there was a lil bit of nervousness in her voice...but he didnt notice it as he was too excited to meet her and propose her...
"nothing, i am just outside too buying food for nathan, thought you could accompany me.."he lied..
"oo..sorry honey...my friends asked me first...how about tomorrow..?we havent gone out together for a while now..."she said...
"hmm..that sounds good..alrite then, see yoou tomorrow babe...i'll send you a message later...bye..love you"
"bye..love you, too..."
she is at the garden, he thought...then samuel made his way to the garden...prepared to propose his love one...a few minutes later, he reached the garden...he looked around the garden for natasha...and he found her..not alone, true...but not with her friends...she was with 2 guys....and samuel recognized them...they were gabriel and johanness...and natasha was kissing with johanness...it cant be,samuel thought...and what gabriel was doing..?seeing his bestfriend's girlfriend was kissing with other guy...was that why gabriel asked samuel whether he was sure to propose natasha or not...?
samuel stunned and he shouted,"OI..!!"
three of them were shocked and looked at him...
"sammy..."natasha said...
"sam.."said gabriel."what are you doing here...?"
"sammy..."natasha came closer to samuel..started to cry...johanness just stood and watched the scene...
in disbelief, samuel kept quite...his heart was broken...
"dont come near me..."samuel whispered to natasha...
"sammy, listen..."but samuel shouted...
"stay away from me..!!"
"whats the meaning of this...?i came here to propose you...to tell you that i love you and want you in my life forever.."samuel said and natasha fell in tears as she was hearing this."i wanted it to be a surprise, but, seems like im the one who got a surprise..."
"and you.."he said to gabriel."did you know about all of this...?"
"yes, sam..."
"since when...?"
"6 months a go...she started cheated on you 6 months a go..."gabriel said, he felt guilty for not telling his bset friend about this...
"6 months ,sha.."he said."what did i do wrong till you betrayed me...?"
"nothing, sammy...i love you...but.."samuel cut her sentence and shook his head..
"you dont love me, you loved me...but you dont...hahahahahaha...!!"samuel started to laugh...
"when i was 15, i was abandoned, my parents didnt want me...i found you guys, nath and you, gab...and now i thought i found a girl who really loves me..."he said..
"i do sammy.."cried natasha..
"but now...i am being abandoned again...left and betrayed..."he was laughing and at the same time samuel's tears began to fall...
"i have given my heart to you, natasha...and to you,too gab..i would die for three of you...for natasha, gabriel and nathanael...but yet, 2 of you betrayed me...i dont know about nath...but it seems like i am heartless now...HAHAHAHA...!!!"he turned around and started to walk and shout and laugh like mad person...
"sam..wait.."said gabriel."we can explain this..."
"i dont need you to explain..i only need reason why i deserved this..."samuel said, he kept walking further from them...as they were trying to catch him...
"i am sorry, sammy..you dont deserve this...i am sorry..."natasha said...
"too late...i already got what i dont deserve...and if i really could, i would take out my heart out, literally..."he said...
"are you sure...?"someone in black cloth has come to samuel all in sudden and asked him."are you really sure that you want to take your heart out...?
samuel looked at the stranger."yes, i am sure..."
all of them stayed put...looked very confused...who is this man...?they asked...
then the stranger said,"i can do it for you...but i am telling you...if you take out your heart, you'll be dead...you want that...?"
"nope...i want to live without my heart..."samuel said...
"whats your name son...?"the man in black cloth asked..
"samuel.."
"well samuel...how if i say, you sell your heart to me, you get your life without your heart...but not only you live without a heart...but you will get the power to spread misery and lead my army to conquer this world..lead my army and be as who you want to be."he offered samuel a nonsense deal."you will live as my general and grimreaper...and you can do whatever you want with people in this earth and those who have hurt you...will you do that...?
samuel, he was confused, sad, hurt, angry, and felt betrayed said,"my parents didnt want me, people who i thought loved me betrayed me...all i do is for them...in this body, with this heart...and now i think...why do i need this heart for...?i dont need it anymore..."
"so..its a deal...?"the death smiled evilly and ready to shake samuel's hand...
"sammy...what are you doing...?get away from him.."said natasha...gabriel and johanness just stood in confuse...
samuel didnt listen to her...and then he said,"deal.."
END...
next up, chapter 2 : how heartless are you?
Sunday, November 15, 2009
i miss them so much
ciao...
i wasnt in gud mood these 2 days...hahahahhaa...you may have noticed it...
had dinner which was just 0.3333333333333333333333333333333 of my usual meal....hehehehhehe....and i wanna play futsal sumore...coz if i am pissed, i always play futsal....hehehe..but my teammates are having exam and so am i...so i must wait..
but i couldnt concentrate if its still goin on...i wanna release this thing...so i facebooked and found myself tagged in the pict...i saw wat kind of pict...i saw it and i laughed...pict of me and my best frens...hahahahhahaha....and all my anger was just gone the moment i saw their faces...hahahahhha....
i miss them...i keep remembering things we had...i know i forget bout them sometimes...but i still need them despite the facts that i dont want them to know my probs...hehehehhehe...
they never leave me when i face my probs though i dont always tell them my probs...as i am typing this, my tears fell for the first time since i dunno when the last time i cried, but these are tears of happiness, for God had given me them as my frens...
other than my fam, my frens and my GF(if i had one), these guys are one of the best thing that ever happened in my life...hehehehehhehehe....
i miss them...miss the people i trust with my life...hahahahaa...miss my bastards...hahahahaha...
this is it for now...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....!!!
i wasnt in gud mood these 2 days...hahahahhaa...you may have noticed it...
had dinner which was just 0.3333333333333333333333333333333 of my usual meal....hehehehhehe....and i wanna play futsal sumore...coz if i am pissed, i always play futsal....hehehe..but my teammates are having exam and so am i...so i must wait..
but i couldnt concentrate if its still goin on...i wanna release this thing...so i facebooked and found myself tagged in the pict...i saw wat kind of pict...i saw it and i laughed...pict of me and my best frens...hahahahhahaha....and all my anger was just gone the moment i saw their faces...hahahahhha....
i miss them...i keep remembering things we had...i know i forget bout them sometimes...but i still need them despite the facts that i dont want them to know my probs...hehehehhehe...
they never leave me when i face my probs though i dont always tell them my probs...as i am typing this, my tears fell for the first time since i dunno when the last time i cried, but these are tears of happiness, for God had given me them as my frens...
other than my fam, my frens and my GF(if i had one), these guys are one of the best thing that ever happened in my life...hehehehehhehehe....
i miss them...miss the people i trust with my life...hahahahaa...miss my bastards...hahahahaha...
this is it for now...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....!!!
a man's worthless life
ciao...
hahahahha...i dunno wat to blog today...hehehehe...
but it crossed my mind about someone i am very close with...i understand him the most and so he does to me...hehehehe...but i am afraid that hes going to change...and i dont want that to happen...coz hes the first reason i want to live...hehehehehehehe....
few years ago...he was very strong...every time he got problems...he always kept them to himself..he never told anybody...not his fam or even our friends...but he started to be weaker and weaker...and i think these times hes at his weakest point...i know that ppl say it helps when we talk bout our probs with our closests frens or fams...but not for this guy, hes got his own way to overcome probs which i found work for him until now...hes just like phoenix, a mythological creature which always rebirth after its death....hehehehhee....
the reason i said hes getting weaker coz he started to share his probs with ppl...i know its gud to share..but for him, i prefer he just keeps it ti himself...coz its the person i know...hehehehe...u may want to call me a bad fren, but some things are just fine if u keep it like that...everytime i see him face it by himself, i see one of the strongest person in the world despite wat ppl think of him...
if you look at his life, its really a worthless one...his dream was taken away coz no one encouraged him..he did try..but he found it useless...hes still trying it..with less effort...hahahahaha...but i told you, hes like a phoenix..he 'rebirth' and found new dream...and its as difficult as his previous dream...or maybe more difficult and greater and bigger....hehehehe....he doesnt care bout wat ppl think bout his dream...or wat ppl say bout how impossible it is to reach it coz hes just from a small town...hes not giving up...
but hes getting weaker and weaker...i think he is on his way to his limit...he told me that he would change if it passes his limit...i, too, know that it will pass his limit...he told me, he cant cry even when he really wants to...wat comes out when hes trying is just laugh...and i know hes not playing around...i know him too well....but i dont want him to change...i wanna see him as he was...i just hope that God will give him strength...makes him stronger again...but, tell you 1 thing, despite the facts that hes getting weaker, he is still the strongest person i ever known...hahahahahahhaha.....
looking at his worthless life, i found that everyone's life is the same...but his effort of proving it is worth fighting for shows me that it doesnt matter how your life looks like...its about how you live it...your effort of making it priceless matters....
for you my fren, we know each other too well...and i dont want you to change...even the worst thing happens to you..please dont change...if you do..i dunno wat to do...im gonna lose my direction...you are the reason i live...if you are no more in this world...then i'll be gone too...so please, come back like you used to be...you are just as strong as you have ever been, were, are and will be....
hehehehehehehehe...woohoo...yeah...wee....(arms are up like riding roller coaster....)hahahahahahha....
this it for now...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
hahahahha...i dunno wat to blog today...hehehehe...
but it crossed my mind about someone i am very close with...i understand him the most and so he does to me...hehehehe...but i am afraid that hes going to change...and i dont want that to happen...coz hes the first reason i want to live...hehehehehehehe....
few years ago...he was very strong...every time he got problems...he always kept them to himself..he never told anybody...not his fam or even our friends...but he started to be weaker and weaker...and i think these times hes at his weakest point...i know that ppl say it helps when we talk bout our probs with our closests frens or fams...but not for this guy, hes got his own way to overcome probs which i found work for him until now...hes just like phoenix, a mythological creature which always rebirth after its death....hehehehhee....
the reason i said hes getting weaker coz he started to share his probs with ppl...i know its gud to share..but for him, i prefer he just keeps it ti himself...coz its the person i know...hehehehe...u may want to call me a bad fren, but some things are just fine if u keep it like that...everytime i see him face it by himself, i see one of the strongest person in the world despite wat ppl think of him...
if you look at his life, its really a worthless one...his dream was taken away coz no one encouraged him..he did try..but he found it useless...hes still trying it..with less effort...hahahahaha...but i told you, hes like a phoenix..he 'rebirth' and found new dream...and its as difficult as his previous dream...or maybe more difficult and greater and bigger....hehehehe....he doesnt care bout wat ppl think bout his dream...or wat ppl say bout how impossible it is to reach it coz hes just from a small town...hes not giving up...
but hes getting weaker and weaker...i think he is on his way to his limit...he told me that he would change if it passes his limit...i, too, know that it will pass his limit...he told me, he cant cry even when he really wants to...wat comes out when hes trying is just laugh...and i know hes not playing around...i know him too well....but i dont want him to change...i wanna see him as he was...i just hope that God will give him strength...makes him stronger again...but, tell you 1 thing, despite the facts that hes getting weaker, he is still the strongest person i ever known...hahahahahahhaha.....
looking at his worthless life, i found that everyone's life is the same...but his effort of proving it is worth fighting for shows me that it doesnt matter how your life looks like...its about how you live it...your effort of making it priceless matters....
for you my fren, we know each other too well...and i dont want you to change...even the worst thing happens to you..please dont change...if you do..i dunno wat to do...im gonna lose my direction...you are the reason i live...if you are no more in this world...then i'll be gone too...so please, come back like you used to be...you are just as strong as you have ever been, were, are and will be....
hehehehehehehehe...woohoo...yeah...wee....(arms are up like riding roller coaster....)hahahahahahha....
this it for now...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Friday, November 13, 2009
you need me...?or you dont...?
i remembered first time i saw her...the first day of our college...she was so beautiful that i held my breath...but she was with her boyfriend...what could i do...?nothing at that moment...and then, i entered my class...there she was...sitting alone, without her boyfriend...and there was sadness in her eyes...and so, our college days started....first semester..we didnt talk...didnt talk at all...
but i saw her everyday...i could tell her sadness...but not every time...and when she laughed...she was the most beautiful girl that i ever met...and i said to myself...'i want those smiles in my life'...
second semester...second term...i started talking with her...both of us were given assignment in group of 2...she was my partner...we did in library until night...she went to find some books...but she didnt return to our table...i went after her...and for the first time..i saw her crying...i sighed...
,"what happened...?" i asked her...
she was shocked..and wiped her eyes...,"nothing.." she said...
i knew she was lying...
,"jeanne..i know we barely talk since first semester...but when you are crying, it doesnt mean nothing..." i said."if you have a problem, you better talk to your friends or your parents...."
,"they wont understand..."she said."and they will never understand.."...she leaned on the bookshelf...
and i leaned, too, next to her...i sighed and asked her,"what is it about...?"
she looked at me...and i stared back at her...she told me her problem...it was about her boyfriend...her family wanted her to be with him...and so did her friends...but it was not like she did not love him...but due to his attitude...but she didnt want to tell me what was his problems...
i didnt not force her to tell...but i said to myself..."forget your boyfriend, be my girl instead..."..but i couldnt say it...
next few months...we became very close...she still dated her boyfriend...i didnt complain...we talked everyday...laughed together...what could i ask for more...?nothing...i knew i wanted more..i needed more...but it was just enough for me...at the moment...
i knew...she was happier when she was with me...much more when she was with her boyfriend...and even with her friends...
then one day, we sat at the starbucks...chilling out and releasing tension from exam...
,"okok, can you guess this..?" we were joking, lame ones..."why is a mosquito better than a fly...?
she was thinking...,"ermm...i dunno.."
,"come on, dont give up so fast...guess it...hahahaha..."
,"i really dont know...why is it...?
,;hahahaha...its a lame one,ok...and the answer is, because mosquito can fly but fly can not 'mosquito'...."
she was stunned, giving me a look without expression...then she started to laugh...
,"HAHAHAHAHA...my God, kevin...that was very lame....!!!HAHAHAHHAHA....."
,"HAHAHHAHAHA....!!"
but then, after she laughed, she cried all of sudden...
,"what is it about...?is it about him again...?"i asked...
she nodded...
sigh sigh and sigh...all i could do...in case i havent told you, her boyfriend at that moment was a jerk...he cheated on her few times...caused her to cry...and every time she asked for break up, he would be angry and abusive...well...not too abusive...but then he cried with her...said that he wouldnt do that anymore...but he did that yet again...and yet again..and yet again...
i wanted to say"forget him, be my girl instead.."...but i couldnt say it...
,"what is it this time...?"i asked...
,"he saw us together...and he scolded me...said whether i love him or not..." she said...
he was jealous...of course...but i didnt want to find problem...no, i didnt want to START problem...if he wanted, then i would let him start first and i had my reason to fight back...he was not supposed to think i was afraid of him...
,"so, what are you goin to do now...?if you want me to leave..i'll go..." i said...
,"no...please dont go...i know i shouldnt do this to you...u might have feeling for me...(she got me)...but i dont want you to leave...but i dont want him to go, either...please...stay with me..."more tears fell as she was crying and saying....
i hugged her and whispered,"i am not going anywhere..."
,"i love you, kevin...same like i love him..but i dunno what to do..."she said....
she loved me...more than enough for me...i know every time i saw her with him, she talked about him...my heart would be full of pain...but i didnt these moments to fade away...and i hoped she would be mine someday...
but then, she started to change...not too much, but i felt she was slightly not the same...she always came to me when he made her cried...but when she was happy, she started to keep the distance...my friends gave me theories that said she just came to me when she was sad...and left me when she didnt really need me...
i knew what the said was true... but also knew that she was confused and didnt know the right thing to do...so i just kept the feeling, though it was hurting me...but, i couldnt hold those feelings any longer...i called her, asked her to meet me...not only to tell her my feelings, but also to inform her that i am going overseas...
,"kevin...thankfully you came..i have something to talk.."she said...and i knew what was it about...her boyfriend...
,"jeanne, listen to me first, ok...i am going overseas..."i told her..she was shocked...i admitted the news was very sudden...then i continued,"and i want to know your feelings...towards me and him..."
she started to cry..i did expect that...and for the next few hours...she told me everything...that she kept the distance...that she didnt know the right thing to do...that she couldnt choose...
for me, when i heard that, was the end of our moments...i decided to think that she chose her boyfriend, the guy who gave her sadness and 'so-called-love'...instead of me,who was always there for her...no matter how much pain i felt...it was the end,i said...she cried...as i walked away...she just quarrel with her boyfriend, again...and i just couldnt do anything more at that time...i was so sorry...
i packed my stuffs one night...my phone rang...it was her friend...
,"kevin, jeanne is committing suicide...!!!" her friend told me...
ok, what has happened...?why she wanted to do such thing...?
,"what are you talking...?where is she....?where is her boyfriend...?"
,"she sent a message...her boyfriend just cheated again...and YOU decided to leave her...she is goin to commit suicide....she said she is goin to let herself get hit a car..." her friend said while crying...
the truth was i never said i am goin to leave her...i just said that was the end..but i was not going anywhere...my heart at least...not physically....
,"where is she...?"i asked...
,"what do you care...?we just want to inform..."i cut her sentence...
,"DAMNITT....just tell me where she is...!!!"i shouted on the phone...
she stunned and a moment later told me,"she is in the highway..."
i turned of the call...went out and went to the highway as fast as i could...'i am not gonna lose you.."i thought...
i reached the highway...i saw her...i ran after her...she was very close to the death...i managed to reach her...but i wasnt that lucky...the time i pushed her to the road side was too late for me... was the one who got hit...i lost my consciousness...i was in coma...
,"what have you done to kevin...?!!"one of my friend shouted at her...they were in the hospital...3 of my friends, jeanne and her friends...and her boyfriend...
,"dont shout at my girl...!!"her boyfriend said...
,"you shut up, you f*cking asshole, its my friend who is inside that room...and he is in there because of you and her..."the other friend of mine scolded him."and if you want to settle this, we do it outside..."
her boyfriend fell silent and sat next to her...he tried to hug her, asked my she was sad...
,"you said he was nobody to you..."he said....
,"NOBODY...!!"my first friend shouted again..."he did almost everything for you...didnt expect anything in return...but this is what you gave him...??unbelievable..."
jeanne cried...,"i was confused.."
,'well...as his friends...we all are asking you to leave him...you are giving him hardship than happiness..."said my second friend...
,"thats right.."my third friend said, he was quite most of the times in the hospital...,"we want you to leave him...there are a lot of girls out there for him...but jeanne..its you who he wants...so if he survives, which i believe he will...when he is asking you again...whether you give him or no...please dont make him suffer anymore...."
they kept quite...waiting for the doctor to come out from the room and tell my condition...then the doctor showed up...
,"he cant make it..."the doctor said,"if he keeps like this...his life will be over in the next few months..."
jeanne cried louder...2 of my friends swore and the other one punched the wall...jeanne ran into the room...came to my bed...she looked at me...
,"kevin...open your eyes please...tell me all your lame jokes...please...open your eyes...show me your smiles..."she said,"please, come back to me...i need you...i dont need someone who hurts me, i only need you...i am so sorry for making you like this...thats why you have to wake up and let me love you....please...kevin...i need your laugh and smiles..i want them in my life..."
,"enough, jeanne...he cant listen to you...,"said my third friend....
she whispered, "please kevin...wake up and open your eyes..."
"he wont listen...he is gone for now...,"said the doctor...
the room fell silent...jeanne cried...my friends cried...i wanna come back to them...but i was leaving...forever...
then jeanne shouted,"KEVIN...!!PLEASE, COME BACK TO ME...OPEN YOUR EYES...DONT LEAVE ME...!!"
i opened my eyes...,"i am not goin anywhere..."
everyone in that room was shocked...i was in coma and now i am back...
my friends hugged me, i didnt give a damn about her boyfriend or should i say her ex-boyfriend...
i came out from hospital few days later...jeanne was my girlfriend, finally...and we are now spending our times together and forever...i dont know how long is forever...but as long i am with her, i just hope forever is still forever...because never stops...
'i want those smiles in my life'
'i am not going anywhere...not gonna leave you, unless you ask me to..."
'i love you...'
END...
ciao...enjoy the story, aite...today i wasnt so alive...but managed to write this story...
this is it for now...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA......!!!
but i saw her everyday...i could tell her sadness...but not every time...and when she laughed...she was the most beautiful girl that i ever met...and i said to myself...'i want those smiles in my life'...
second semester...second term...i started talking with her...both of us were given assignment in group of 2...she was my partner...we did in library until night...she went to find some books...but she didnt return to our table...i went after her...and for the first time..i saw her crying...i sighed...
,"what happened...?" i asked her...
she was shocked..and wiped her eyes...,"nothing.." she said...
i knew she was lying...
,"jeanne..i know we barely talk since first semester...but when you are crying, it doesnt mean nothing..." i said."if you have a problem, you better talk to your friends or your parents...."
,"they wont understand..."she said."and they will never understand.."...she leaned on the bookshelf...
and i leaned, too, next to her...i sighed and asked her,"what is it about...?"
she looked at me...and i stared back at her...she told me her problem...it was about her boyfriend...her family wanted her to be with him...and so did her friends...but it was not like she did not love him...but due to his attitude...but she didnt want to tell me what was his problems...
i didnt not force her to tell...but i said to myself..."forget your boyfriend, be my girl instead..."..but i couldnt say it...
next few months...we became very close...she still dated her boyfriend...i didnt complain...we talked everyday...laughed together...what could i ask for more...?nothing...i knew i wanted more..i needed more...but it was just enough for me...at the moment...
i knew...she was happier when she was with me...much more when she was with her boyfriend...and even with her friends...
then one day, we sat at the starbucks...chilling out and releasing tension from exam...
,"okok, can you guess this..?" we were joking, lame ones..."why is a mosquito better than a fly...?
she was thinking...,"ermm...i dunno.."
,"come on, dont give up so fast...guess it...hahahaha..."
,"i really dont know...why is it...?
,;hahahaha...its a lame one,ok...and the answer is, because mosquito can fly but fly can not 'mosquito'...."
she was stunned, giving me a look without expression...then she started to laugh...
,"HAHAHAHAHA...my God, kevin...that was very lame....!!!HAHAHAHHAHA....."
,"HAHAHHAHAHA....!!"
but then, after she laughed, she cried all of sudden...
,"what is it about...?is it about him again...?"i asked...
she nodded...
sigh sigh and sigh...all i could do...in case i havent told you, her boyfriend at that moment was a jerk...he cheated on her few times...caused her to cry...and every time she asked for break up, he would be angry and abusive...well...not too abusive...but then he cried with her...said that he wouldnt do that anymore...but he did that yet again...and yet again..and yet again...
i wanted to say"forget him, be my girl instead.."...but i couldnt say it...
,"what is it this time...?"i asked...
,"he saw us together...and he scolded me...said whether i love him or not..." she said...
he was jealous...of course...but i didnt want to find problem...no, i didnt want to START problem...if he wanted, then i would let him start first and i had my reason to fight back...he was not supposed to think i was afraid of him...
,"so, what are you goin to do now...?if you want me to leave..i'll go..." i said...
,"no...please dont go...i know i shouldnt do this to you...u might have feeling for me...(she got me)...but i dont want you to leave...but i dont want him to go, either...please...stay with me..."more tears fell as she was crying and saying....
i hugged her and whispered,"i am not going anywhere..."
,"i love you, kevin...same like i love him..but i dunno what to do..."she said....
she loved me...more than enough for me...i know every time i saw her with him, she talked about him...my heart would be full of pain...but i didnt these moments to fade away...and i hoped she would be mine someday...
but then, she started to change...not too much, but i felt she was slightly not the same...she always came to me when he made her cried...but when she was happy, she started to keep the distance...my friends gave me theories that said she just came to me when she was sad...and left me when she didnt really need me...
i knew what the said was true... but also knew that she was confused and didnt know the right thing to do...so i just kept the feeling, though it was hurting me...but, i couldnt hold those feelings any longer...i called her, asked her to meet me...not only to tell her my feelings, but also to inform her that i am going overseas...
,"kevin...thankfully you came..i have something to talk.."she said...and i knew what was it about...her boyfriend...
,"jeanne, listen to me first, ok...i am going overseas..."i told her..she was shocked...i admitted the news was very sudden...then i continued,"and i want to know your feelings...towards me and him..."
she started to cry..i did expect that...and for the next few hours...she told me everything...that she kept the distance...that she didnt know the right thing to do...that she couldnt choose...
for me, when i heard that, was the end of our moments...i decided to think that she chose her boyfriend, the guy who gave her sadness and 'so-called-love'...instead of me,who was always there for her...no matter how much pain i felt...it was the end,i said...she cried...as i walked away...she just quarrel with her boyfriend, again...and i just couldnt do anything more at that time...i was so sorry...
i packed my stuffs one night...my phone rang...it was her friend...
,"kevin, jeanne is committing suicide...!!!" her friend told me...
ok, what has happened...?why she wanted to do such thing...?
,"what are you talking...?where is she....?where is her boyfriend...?"
,"she sent a message...her boyfriend just cheated again...and YOU decided to leave her...she is goin to commit suicide....she said she is goin to let herself get hit a car..." her friend said while crying...
the truth was i never said i am goin to leave her...i just said that was the end..but i was not going anywhere...my heart at least...not physically....
,"where is she...?"i asked...
,"what do you care...?we just want to inform..."i cut her sentence...
,"DAMNITT....just tell me where she is...!!!"i shouted on the phone...
she stunned and a moment later told me,"she is in the highway..."
i turned of the call...went out and went to the highway as fast as i could...'i am not gonna lose you.."i thought...
i reached the highway...i saw her...i ran after her...she was very close to the death...i managed to reach her...but i wasnt that lucky...the time i pushed her to the road side was too late for me... was the one who got hit...i lost my consciousness...i was in coma...
,"what have you done to kevin...?!!"one of my friend shouted at her...they were in the hospital...3 of my friends, jeanne and her friends...and her boyfriend...
,"dont shout at my girl...!!"her boyfriend said...
,"you shut up, you f*cking asshole, its my friend who is inside that room...and he is in there because of you and her..."the other friend of mine scolded him."and if you want to settle this, we do it outside..."
her boyfriend fell silent and sat next to her...he tried to hug her, asked my she was sad...
,"you said he was nobody to you..."he said....
,"NOBODY...!!"my first friend shouted again..."he did almost everything for you...didnt expect anything in return...but this is what you gave him...??unbelievable..."
jeanne cried...,"i was confused.."
,'well...as his friends...we all are asking you to leave him...you are giving him hardship than happiness..."said my second friend...
,"thats right.."my third friend said, he was quite most of the times in the hospital...,"we want you to leave him...there are a lot of girls out there for him...but jeanne..its you who he wants...so if he survives, which i believe he will...when he is asking you again...whether you give him or no...please dont make him suffer anymore...."
they kept quite...waiting for the doctor to come out from the room and tell my condition...then the doctor showed up...
,"he cant make it..."the doctor said,"if he keeps like this...his life will be over in the next few months..."
jeanne cried louder...2 of my friends swore and the other one punched the wall...jeanne ran into the room...came to my bed...she looked at me...
,"kevin...open your eyes please...tell me all your lame jokes...please...open your eyes...show me your smiles..."she said,"please, come back to me...i need you...i dont need someone who hurts me, i only need you...i am so sorry for making you like this...thats why you have to wake up and let me love you....please...kevin...i need your laugh and smiles..i want them in my life..."
,"enough, jeanne...he cant listen to you...,"said my third friend....
she whispered, "please kevin...wake up and open your eyes..."
"he wont listen...he is gone for now...,"said the doctor...
the room fell silent...jeanne cried...my friends cried...i wanna come back to them...but i was leaving...forever...
then jeanne shouted,"KEVIN...!!PLEASE, COME BACK TO ME...OPEN YOUR EYES...DONT LEAVE ME...!!"
i opened my eyes...,"i am not goin anywhere..."
everyone in that room was shocked...i was in coma and now i am back...
my friends hugged me, i didnt give a damn about her boyfriend or should i say her ex-boyfriend...
i came out from hospital few days later...jeanne was my girlfriend, finally...and we are now spending our times together and forever...i dont know how long is forever...but as long i am with her, i just hope forever is still forever...because never stops...
'i want those smiles in my life'
'i am not going anywhere...not gonna leave you, unless you ask me to..."
'i love you...'
END...
ciao...enjoy the story, aite...today i wasnt so alive...but managed to write this story...
this is it for now...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA......!!!
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